Well, darn, it didn't happen this week...officially, that is. And it is because of a stupid food decision I made last night. I won't say much about it except that it was high in sodium. So, by this morning I ballooned up like the Stay Puff Marshmallow Man in a microwave. While the change is not visible, I can easily tell that my hands and wrist are swollen.
Last night, right after I finished eating, I knew I made a mistake. There wasn't a lot of calories or even weight to the food. I knew the sodium would cause me to hold water and there wasn't anything (withing doing something stupid) that I could do about it. Of course, one question to ask is whether or not the water I'm holding would put me under 300. If you consider that a normal bottled water (16.9 oz) weighs 1 pound...then yes. The only way to know is to give my body a couple of days (without stupid eating) to flush the water and sodium and then weigh again. And that's exactly what I'm going to do. This will be one of the few times that I will weigh more than once in a week...at least that I'll admit too, anyway. Because this is such a huge milestone, I do not hesitate to do what some would call trivial. But, I would say...read on...
Now, it doesn't matter how it happened or that I didn't get under 300 today. What matters is how I handle the disappointment of not hitting the 200s today. See, two years ago I got down to 304 pounds. At the time, I had the same thoughts as this last week..."This is the week!" But, back then, it didn't happen. In fact, that was the end of the weight loss and the beginning of the journey, not only to where I started, but all the way to 350. So, this morning, my mind raced back 2 years and a few thoughts of doubt and the proverbial "Oh no, here we go again" crept in.
But not for long!!
This time, I choose to see the reality of the situation...that I've lost almost 50 pounds in about 4 months...that a delay of a couple days to "officially" reach a goal means nothing...that I am not about to let anything stop me...that I will not let go of the momentum...that this is about a journey to a better place and not about passing a mile marker on the side of the road.
For some time, I have worried about hitting the 200s. And I worry about finishing the 1/2 in January. Why? Because, they mean so much to me that I'm afraid that I'll focus on these "mile markers" and lose sight of the road itself. That these are the end, the final goals. So much time and energy has gone (and will go) into these efforts. And at some point one does need at least a mental break from it. But I can't afford to...not yet.
So, I press on. In my long run progression I have a low week this week...4 miles. After the long run last week, the issues I've had and taking a few days off, I'm very curious about how I will do. But, do it I will. And in the process I will reach my next (new) goal of 275 before the 1/2!
Till Next Time...KEEP MOVING FORWARD!!!
1 comments:
Just know that you can do it and you will! Don't think of the 1/2 as the end, think of it as the beginning. You can start planning on doing another race after that. It doesn't have to be another 1/2 marathon, it can be a 5K, but commit to doing another race to keep you moving forward.
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