Finally!!!!

The drought is over! Last night I did 1.8mi in 40 mins. I know, the pace is horrible. But, last night was all about getting started, making sure my shoes are still ok and getting an idea of what I could do without hurting myself. I did not really push myself at all and that was my idea going in.

The thing about last night, was that I had every excuse to not get on the treadmill. I got home from work just after 5:00 but needed to head over to my parents to work with my Dad to get a few things ironed out over some stuff we're working on. So, my plan was that I would exercise as soon as I got home...somewhere around 6:30 or 7:00. But, I didn't leave my parents till after 8:00, and I still hadn't eaten dinner. So, I had every excuse ready to use. Except, one small detail. Before I went over to my parents, I changed into my exercise clothes. So, when I got home, I really had to excuse but to exercise.

Now, I know this sounds all positive and that I'm patting myself on the back. But, I also know that last night was just one day. Do I deserve a pat on the back? Maybe a small one, I did DO something. But don't think that I believe the drought to be completely over. After all, one day of exercise does not make up for ~290 days of not exercising.

One final closing thought...from the world of Dancing With The Stars. "What?? Dancing With The Stars??" Yes, this week Michael Flatley (Lord of the Dance) was a guest judge. When Michael was critiquing Lance Bass' dance he had this to say...."Confidence is built out of hard work, determination and self-belief." I think it's easy to say that I've had no hard work, determination or self-belief. Therefore, I've had no confidence that I could/can accomplish the things that I want and need to accomplish.

Till Next Time...Keep Moving Forward!!!!

Who do you want to be today?

Today, Tomorrow......?

This is a question I've asked myself many times lately. Dave Ramsey has a saying..."Adults devise a plan and follow it. Children do what feels good." It's hard to answer my question after reading Dave's quote.

There are SO many thing that I can (and have) used to "justify" doing what "feels good"....I didn't get much sleep because the baby kept me up (yeah, but what about Mom.."sleep, what's that"); My exercise socks or clothes aren't clean (well, DUH, wash them); The exercise room, and most important, the treadmill, is covered with stuff from getting ready for the baby (um, the baby's here and there's not that much stuff, do something with it, but at least clean off the treadmill); Lunch didn't sit well (are you sure? At least, next time eat smarter, you knew what would happen if you had Rosie's); What if....? (Well, there no "IF, if there's no "DO"); I didn't "succeed" last time. (You bought into the "We're losing the war" argument. Meanwhile, you were making progress and then just quit. "You can't expect to win the war unless you put up a fight")

And I could keep going. But it really does come down to something Mike said in a comment to my last post...."It's all a matter of how badly you want something." And it's a matter of how much am I willing to fight for what I want...."Adults devise a plan and follow it. Children do what feels good."

Obviously, this post is as much for myself as it is for anyone else. But, maybe there will be something that hits home with someone.

To be frank, I'm tired. Not so much physically, but more so emotionally and spiritually. I'm tired of not doing the things that I need to do....not being the person I need/should be. But, it is up to me to do something about it. And the time is now.

Till Next Time....Get Moving Forward!!!!

Now where did I put that saddle?

Well, I wish I could say that I AM back in the saddle. But, I can't yet.....YET!

I know that through my blogging silence I've lost some readers and supporters. And that's fine, I actually kind of expect it. But, in spite of it I have to move on and move forward.

Believe it or not, I'm still committed to doing the 2009 WDW 1/2 Marathon. And that's why I'm writing this today. I want to know who is still on my side and is still willing to support me in getting to January and beyond.

I have had a lot going on lately, (see previous post) but at the same time, those same things make this the perfect time to get moving again.

What I want to ask today is that those of you who will still support me, that you do just that. To me there are two groups of people I want to point out. First, is obviously those that only have this blog to follow and encourage me. Second, are those that are around me on a regular basis.....family, co-workers, etc. I need both of you, but I need those around me to not be afraid to say something and not worry about my "feelings". The silence from those around me during my "silence" has bothered me. No matter how much I may not "want" to hear what you have to say (or answer the questions you may ask), I need to hear it. And I ask that if there is something to be said, SAY IT!

There, now I've said it! ;-)

Till Next Time...Start Moving Forward!!!